Qoute

"You just do it. You force yourself to get up. You force yourself to put one foot before the other, and God damn it, you refuse to let it get to you. You fight. You cry. You curse. Then you go about the business of living. That’s how I’ve done it. There’s no other way." - Elizabeth Taylor 

 

Anciety

I have lived for so long now with the presure over my heart and the uncertanty over when my next anciety will attack will show up, that I now don't even now how do deal with prefection.

With perfection I mean waking up and everything feels great, going for a run that also feels awsome, having breakfast good even that. My whole body feels like its in euphoria mode.

Yes Spring is finally here it is Euphoria!!

But what do I do? I start to look forthe signs, what is wrong, isn't there somedark cloud howering in the horizon of my mind. There must be something it feels wrong.

Nothing has happened for me to feel like this I should feel the misery, the panic, the anciety.

Not Happy and Calm!

Or hang on that is Exactly how I should feel and what I feel right here right now!!

Stop and enjoy it god damn it!!

Insomnia

You are not my BFF
Never have been
Never will be
Ever!

The never ending story

And then there were emptiness and pain.

When is it my turn?!

And now it begins....

The next 4 weeks will be a whirlwind. Will try to update because there are some fun, fun things planned.

Today we have a regional day at work where we are getting educated in some changes in the new educational system in Sweden since fall 2011.

Thursday I fly to France with work for 5 days.
Saturday I'm visiting some friends up north in Sweden.
Easter parents are coming for a visit. Will finally get my entrance to apartment fixed.
April fools day I head to Finland for work, then we have Madagascar planning and ending it all with E's birthday party!