Anticipation

Its all new its all nerves and its all the game.

Just sent the text asking what is happening this weekend.

Hoping for a certain reply, but right now its the waiting.

The Dating game I'm all in, but do I want more than just dating with this one?

When?!

I get toungetied when I try and talk to a guy I'm interested in. But honestly this is just ridiculous! We actually try to talk and someone step right into the conversation and I loose my ability to speak yet again.

I had one small mission and that was to try to get a date or number out if you. Instead I lost count (I think you did too) over the amount if times we were interrupted!!!

When will it ever  be possible to get a date out of you??

What the F***

I thought we had discussed this.

 FLOWERS are NOT Ok!!!

Valentines day or not it is not appreciated.

New years resolution

I gave myself two resolutions for this year.

The first one is that I have to give people a chance (guys that is) and I have promised myself to have atleast one new date with a new guy every month for the entire year, or until I meet someone special and start dating him exclusively what ever happens first.

So 2012 that is 12 dates minimum.
Didn't realize until now that is all in 12's ;)

Patience

That is apperently what I need now.

Can I pleae get that prescirbed?

Confusious

Dr I thought you were playing with my head.

But dear little Lamb after this week I think you win and especiallya fter tonight.

So many lokks, so many hints and now ....

nothing!!

Are you for real, even the Dr is more obvious than this (I think)

Time to go GREEN

Why oh WHY is it always green on me when I have to attend a trafficlight party??

OH I guess I could wear yellow also, but that would sort of be lying!

I AM SINGLE and there is no lying in that! So what is better than to go all out....in alcohol that is, what did you think? That I would put on green body paint and attend as the hottest hulk you have ever seen??

Hmm that gave me an idea for next dress up party...

Gutinstinct

I lifted the phone and called!

It felt so good!

We talked and talked and talked and I guess we will just see where it all ends at one point.

The key is no rush, we will just see what happens.

Answers

I have to wait a little longer for some answers.

But I think I sort of now what they are.

24 hrs

In less than 24 hrs I will be stepping of a plane on european ground.

There are many questions that now circulates in my head that I will finally get an answer for. Nervous?

HEll yhea!!

Writersblock

Why is it when I want to write you and email or text I sit for hours and stare until I manage to get lite 5 lines together.

Why don't you crawl back into you hole?

For years and years and years you have played with my heart. When I said stop enough you suddenly got serious. Or correction as serious as you ever can be!

Now I can with easy mind that my heart and head have moved on for good. SO why do you keep pooping like a fucking jack in the box all the time?!

Oh well I see you as a good distraction for my head right now, at least it got me thinking of something else....

Longing

Honey I miss you!

Didn't think it was possible, but can't wait to hear your voice!

sacrifises

2010 I left my life as it was in Sweden to move to Australia to study. I left love in Sweden actually when I left I had two different guys in my life. The weeks moving up towards the move was all cheery and I didn't look back when I left.

At this time I didn't even really reflect over love and being single. I was getting an adventure of my life in Australia. Why would I ever say no to that for a guy? I have never looked back and never regretted my choices I made then.

2002/2003 I fell in love with another guy, but he was never available for me since I chickened out when he was single. I went home to Sweden and when I came back he had found a girl. It just wasn't meant to be and even though I sometimes wonder what might have happened if I had had more curage I still accept the outcome.

Since then love has bin a part of my life, but unfortunately also alot of heartache where I have had to stick, glue, scotchteip, amputate parts of my heart. For three years I have healed it back together letting rest after the lastest heartbreak. No that guy was not Mr Right but I think he is one of those that hurt me the most with all the dishonesty and twotiming.

Now 2011 I have been given an oportunity of a lifetime to go to Mexico for 4 months to study primates in their real environment (the rainforest). I have also been on 3 of the best dates in my life since march (no no high speed dating here). For some reason I can't be happy that I'm going away. To much have happened in my life since march that I don't know what is up or down anymore.

Split brain

Right now I think that would be a good thing for me. Especially if one halv would deal with all my emotions and thoughts that isspinning through my head in rapid speed.

The other half would then deal with all the practical things that I need to get sorted before I leave for Mexico in 2 weeks time.

At the moment its all a mess spinning through my head and its causing me insomnia

An open letter to my brain

Dear brain,

Since friday/ saturday morning you have been bouncing around on your pink clouds and not been of much help regarding my university studies. I know last night was tough on you, but pretty please could you pull yourself together?

I am in desperate need of your knowledge during this home exam in Conservation Biology that I'm currently writing. I'm only asking for you attention until 7 pm tonight and then a couple of hours tommorow. After that you are free again.....

Dating update

Felt after givin a friend the whole dating update list that maybe I should update here to.

Date 1- We call him "på Spåret"- He turned wierd, we are talking psyko wierd (thank god he never got my phone number). ONly lasted one date

Date 2- Importbride- my hot landlord, never made it to a date. He imported a girl from thailand on his last trip.

Date 3- Mcdreamy/steamy- date is set for our first date....

Date 4- Running boy- Trying to find a date for our first date

date 5- Hot guy in class (Hottie 1)- at this moment just eyecandy

ARGH

I thought it was over!! No more email, sms, flowers, etc etc.

but No suddenly my phone beeps (ok vibrates) and whats on it?!

yes you guessed it a Valentines red rose that I can go and pick up at a flowersshop of my choice!!

No luck

Nope the first date turned a bit stange before date two.

So no date two for me with this guy, but i'm sure there is more fish in the sea.

Is the curse broken?

I went on a date for the first time in 2½ years yesterday.

And it will be a second date.