Wednesday, September 3


Some people struggle of how to get ends to meet. 

I struggle with being able to have a voice in certain aspects of my life. At the moment I'm pushed into a corner and either choice will not be the optimal one for all people involved. It affects me negatively mentally either choice I make, the question is how to get out of this mess that was caused for me by another person?

Saturday, June 14

Todays positive

Ok so I have forgotten som days. Lets do a longer list then.

1) have spent an entire day with a great freind with no disturbance like kids or other people
2) Got to cuddle with both kittens and puppies on the same day
3) Got to sleep in


4) Lovely after work with colleagues
5) Took the train to work and walked in the sun along the channel
6) Ran into a friend and had time to catch a lunch with her

7) Sleept like a teenager
8) A good friend called me and gave som great news
9) relaxed and let my body recover

5 glasses of wine = headache from Hell

The stress that has surrounded me lately with not enough water and early start on the after work.

I got the bill today. The headache was outof this world. We are talking all day in bed with a cool cloth on my forehead.

Wednesday, June 11

Todays positive

1) Learned some new functions in the student platform
2) Talked to a good friend on the phone
3) Did yoga


The new Yoga instructor thinks I look fit!

He also praised my in holding the positions.

He is hot, what are the odds that he is also single?

Tuesday, June 10

Today's positive

1) had a killer workout
2) sun was shining
3) accomplished the impossible at work. Got a new teachingroom

Monday, June 9

Today's positive

1) sat in the sun and read a book
2) vacuumed the entire flat
3) bought a birthday gift 

Saturday, June 7

Todays 3 positive

1) I did my laundry
2) Did my rehab traing for the 5th day in a row
3) Had a bag of candy for dessert

Tv series marathon

Lately I have gotten back to both reading and watching Tv-shows non-stop.

The Tv shows I have become especially attached to are:

Make it or break it

Why did they have to cancel the show?

Mr Selfridge

Evrybody likes a costume drama

Orange is the new black

You are telling me I have to wait an entire year until season 3 is out?

Friday, June 6

Todays 3 positive

On facebook there has been this thing floating around where you nominate friends and then they have to write 3 positive things in their life for the next 7 days (and ofcourse nominate three new friends each day).

I sort of liked this one (not the nomination part) and think that I should continue this habit. At first I thought about buying a little notebook, but  then I decided to put it here on the blog instead (hey it might kick it back into life).

1) Helped friends move into their brand spanking new house
2) I got to sleep in
3) I'm happy I have a job that pay me enough that I can afford a pizza on a random night.

Friday, May 30


This long weekend I'm dogsitting my friends dog. I have the best company. She likes to sleep, cuddle and eat. 

It is a little scary though to stay in an apartment with random noises suddenly occurring, but it's getting better.

Going for a walk/run s the most boring thing in the world though. Hence we are in a bit of disagreement at the moment. 


Thursday, May 1

BBC top 100 must read 2014

1. Pride and Prejudice – Jane Austen
2. The Lord of the Rings – JRR Tolkien
3. Jane Eyre – Charlotte Bronte
4. Harry Potter series – JK Rowling
5. To Kill a Mockingbird – Harper Lee
6. The Bible
7. Wuthering Heights – Emily Bronte
8. Nineteen Eighty Four – George Orwell
9. His Dark Materials – Philip Pullman
10. Great Expectations – Charles Dickens
11. Little Women – Louisa M Alcott
12. Tess of the D’Urbervilles – Thomas Hardy
13. Catch 22 – Joseph Heller
14. Complete Works of Shakespeare
15. Rebecca – Daphne Du Maurier
16. The Hobbit – JRR Tolkien
17. Birdsong – Sebastian Faulk
18. Catcher in the Rye – JD Salinger
19. The Time Traveler’s Wife – Audrey Niffenegger
20. Middlemarch – George Eliot
21. Gone With The Wind – Margaret Mitchell
22. The Great Gatsby – F Scott Fitzgerald
24. War and Peace – Leo Tolstoy
25. The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy – Douglas Adams
27. Crime and Punishment – Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28. Grapes of Wrath – John Steinbeck
29. Alice in Wonderland – Lewis Caroll
30. The Wind in the Willows – Kenneth Grahame
31. Anna Karenina – Leo Tolstoy
32. David Copperfield – Charles Dickens
33. Chronicles of Narnia – CS Lewis
34. Emma -Jane Austen
35. Persuasion – Jane Austen
36. The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe – CS Lewis
37. The Kite Runner – Khaled Hosseini
38. Captain Corelli’s Mandolin – Louis De Bernieres
39. Memoirs of a Geisha – Arthur Golden
40. Winnie the Pooh – A.A. Milne
41. Animal Farm – George Orwell
42. The Da Vinci Code – Dan Brown
43. One Hundred Years of Solitude – Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44. A Prayer for Owen Meaney – John Irving
45. The Woman in White – Wilkie Collins
46. Anne of Green Gables – LM Montgomery
47. Far From The Madding Crowd – Thomas Hardy
48. The Handmaid’s Tale – Margaret Atwood
49. Lord of the Flies – William Golding
50. Atonement – Ian McEwan
51. Life of Pi – Yann Martel
52. Dune – Frank Herbert
53. Cold Comfort Farm – Stella Gibbons
54. Sense and Sensibility – Jane Austen
55. A Suitable Boy – Vikram Seth
56. The Shadow of the Wind – Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57. A Tale Of Two Cities – Charles Dickens
58. Brave New World – Aldous Huxley
59. The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time – Mark Haddon
60. Love In The Time Of Cholera – Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61. Of Mice and Men – John Steinbeck
62. Lolita – Vladimir Nabokov
63. The Secret History – Donna Tartt
64. The Lovely Bones – Alice Sebold
65. Count of Monte Cristo – Alexandre Dumas
66. On the Road – Jack Kerouac
67. Jude the Obscure – Thomas Hardy
68. Bridget Jones’s Diary – Helen Fielding
69. Midnight’s Children – Salman Rushdie
70. Moby Dick – Herman Melville
71. Oliver Twist – Charles Dickens
72. Dracula – Bram Stoker
73. The Secret Garden – Frances Hodgson Burnett
74. Notes From A Small Island – Bill Bryson
75. Ulysses – James Joyce
76. The Inferno – Dante
77. Swallows and Amazons – Arthur Ransome
78. Germinal – Emile Zola
79. Vanity Fair – William Makepeace Thackeray
80. Possession – AS Byatt
81. A Christmas Carol – Charles Dickens
82. Cloud Atlas – David Mitchell
83. The Color Purple – Alice Walker
84. The Remains of the Day – Kazuo Ishiguro
85. Madame Bovary – Gustave Flaubert
86. A Fine Balance – Rohinton Mistry
87. Charlotte’s Web – E.B. White
88. The Five People You Meet In Heaven – Mitch Albom
89. Adventures of Sherlock Holmes – Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90. The Faraway Tree Collection – Enid Blyton
91. Heart of Darkness – Joseph Conrad
92. The Little Prince – Antoine De Saint-Exupery (In French)
93. The Wasp Factory – Iain Banks
94. Watership Down – Richard Adams
95. A Confederacy of Dunces – John Kennedy Toole
96. A Town Like Alice – Nevil Shute
97. The Three Musketeers – Alexandre Dumas
98. Hamlet – William Shakespeare
99. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory – Roald Dahl
100. Les Miserables – Victor Hugo


Tuesday, April 22

Crossing the line

I have a colleague that has decided to become my pimp or something. A couple of weeks ago she tried to match me up with a new colleague that I'm no to fond of. 

Yesterday she felt to inform me to watch a tv-show where they are presenting the new characters for a dating program. I'm sorry but the characters or the option of dating on TV is not me.

Actually I prefer to mind my dating business with my friends not colleagues!

Saturday, April 19

Easter on the westcoast of Sweden

From NYC to westcoast of Sweden.

Recovering my body and recharging my batteries....

Friday, April 4


Essentials for traveling to New York City to run a half marathon!

Monday, March 31

This to shall pass

heartbreak pass, anciety pass and you come out on the otherside stronger and hopefully a better you.

But the emptienss from a friend, that takes a while. Breaking up with the love of your life is hard and leave an empty space, but loosing your friend that hole is wrong.

Yes you can breathe, you can, live, laugh and love. But there is a part of you missing!

Wednesday, March 19

To do before you die Speak infront of 150+ people

A couple of weeks ago I got asked by a colleague if I could hold a 15 min speach about something during our theme day at work. The theme was the environment, pollution, food made in Sweden.

It was decided that I would talk about something from my trips & I decided on illegal tree logging on Madagascar & my experience from the country.

I made a pretty powerpoint presentation with lots of pictures, stod up and spoke for 15-18 minutes and hardly got nervous. The nerves were undercontrol the entire time, but when the equipment didn't do as I wanted they made an appearance for me (don't think anybody else noticed).

And you know what. I actually liked this and would love to do it professionally.

Sunday, March 16

Life mystery

Why is it always that when you do your laundry you either find an items of clothing you love floating around in the apartment dirty afterwards, or you spill on your brand spanking clean top?

Saturday, March 15

Reference point

Sitting in a meeting and there is talk about bad roads, long drives, primitive conditions, only one lightbulb/ school etc.

My question: do you have to travel by 4WD? 

Anvers: no, but it's bumpy and primitive.

Me: well,that's manageble. The roads aren't that bad then. I clearly have a new point of refence when it comes to roads in bad condition.

Tuesday, March 11

Look look

I'm in my skinny jeans and can breathe wearing them. 

Getting into them I have bin able to, but moving and breathing has been impossible since December. 

Thursday, February 20


Today I have spend 8 hrs driving my car in snowslush
1 hr at an interview
2hrs struggeling to stay awake in the couch. Is it bedtime yet?

Saturday, February 15

When you master the omelett you master the kitchen?!

If that is true I have now offficially become master chef. Öets just forget about last nights dinner distatser. Disaster in capitol letters!

I tried to make an omelett in the owen today with mushrooms, capsicum, tomatoes and goat cheese. Lets just say it was devine. I then did as I used to do in Mexico. Wrapped it up in a tortillabread with avocado, lettuce, creme fraiche and taco sauce.

I'm still in food heaven. Unfortunately there are no photos since I ate it all before realizing a phot would be needed.

Thursday, February 13

The joy

I just got an email.

They want me to come for a job interview!

i sent in the application last night.
This is how I feel right now!

Monday, February 10

And then there was meat

On friday I was eating in the school diner and walked over to grab my meal from the vegetarian section. There were some new patties laying there that I had to try. Took one, walked over and got my dairyfree sauce and then sat down to eat. Took two bites of my pattie and got a little suspicios. Walked over to the lunchlady and she informed me it was leftover hamburgers from last nights dinner.

I asked why they had put them in the vegetarian section and got a reply about the vegetarian dish was labeled, but apperently the label had ended up wrong.

I was not happy about this reply and stomped away from there, picking up my plate, throwing away the hamburger, sat down and finished my meal, quite pissed of.

The head lunchlady was not at school this day, but this is something that I do not take lightly on!

10th of february

Today is the first day of 2014 that I have opened my bedroom window. I closed it in the end of november and now I felt the urge for fresh air.

Saturday, February 1

10 years as a vegetarian

I realized this morning when I was making breakfast that in January 2004 I made the decision to cut out red meat and birds frommy diet permanently.

Previously I had tried to learn eat red meat and more than chicken fillets, but it never appelaed me. So when I moved from Townsville to Melbourne I also left the little bit of meat I ate behind me.

I have never regretted this decision.

Twice I have eaten chicken, once by accident and once by no other option (except starvation and embarassing my friends mother in law).
Once I hade accindetally eaten pork.
Twice tuna. Once by no other option than embarassing myself for my friends mother that switched out the lamb for fish becasue of me and once by coice (Hey fresh caught tuna by an old man from his hand carved canoe. No dolphins were harmed and he put his life at risk).

Thats it.
There have ofcourse been events where I have been served meat and sent it out, bacon has bin sprinkeled as decoration on my vegetarian salad (Some people do not understand the word vegetarian).
There have been mince dishes served where we have wondered over the true source of the "vegetarian" mince.

Other than that nothing. Sure occassionally I have crawing for liverpate but that is it.

Friday, January 17

Sometimes the doctors are actually correct about the cottontop and ear thing.

Yesterday morning (thursday) my ear were really itchy after my latest allergy burst out. I get itchy in my face around my ears and inside my ears. I did as I normally do (as you recommended not to do) took a cottontop and put it in my ear, not far in or anything like that.

Pulled it out and only held a purple stick. The cottontop part was stuck inside my ear. Let me tell you these are the times you actually realize how lonely it is to live all alone. I had to wait until I get to work and found someone that I feel comfortable with to ask if they could get a pair of tweezers and pull it out. They could not, it was harder than I anticipated.

I actually had to call the doctors to get an ampointment for today.

Today it also started to hurt a little, but headed to the doctors place and was taken care of by a nurse, that had to get the doctor, because it was harder than she anticipated.

Its now out..

my ear is still itchy.....